The universe is so beautiful, so inspiring, and so receptive... I have been struggling internally to regain a feeling of self-worth for quite a while now. To be honest, I even began to wonder what the point was... Why am I alive? Why am I worth anything to the world? To anyone? To myself? It frightened me... and fearful of the end result of such feelings, I began to delve deeper, shoveling the surface dirt to the side, uncovering the true core issue within myself. A treasure chest, not so glistening and alluring, but dark and dreary, filled with insecurities, despair, a loss of faith in myself... of hope in humanity and the world I live in...
Then, last night, I broke through. Epiphanied, if you will. I realized that I was holding myself back from so much beauty in the world... in people... and like a gentle parent, the universe rested a loving hand on my back, and whispered, "I hear you." Today, two beautiful, inspiring ladies entered my life and changed me forever. In ONE. DAY. One, a customer I have encountered on a few occasions, always bringing joy and light into my day. The other, her amazing, young friend, joining her for lunch and expanding the light already shining so bright from the first. Through casual conversation, we discovered our love for writing, blogging, and love in every sense of the word. We exchanged blog information, promising to support each other in our art.
I have now browsed through both of their blogs, and am forever touched by their amazing perspective on life, their unconditional love for the world and the people within it, and their undying love for their art: inspiring the world. Through photos, poetry, recipes, quotes, life experiences, you name it... they are touching the world with their light, limiting the darkness I have viewed for some time now. I chatted momentarily on facebook with one of these ladies, discussing our writing styles, sharing some posts... and she said something to me that I did not understand at first, but thinking about it, it makes so much sense. She said, "...remember, there is so much room for art, take it seriously..." This could mean many different things to many different people, but to me, it reminded me that art is a responsibility. It is to be shared, inspiring those around us, inspiring ourselves... and certainly not to be taken lightly. We are all one, all in this together, and it is truly important how we leave our mark on the world. I, for one, am all about interaction; I love people and being around them... different walks of life make life beautiful. We all contribute to the bigger picture, and how we contribute is our own responsibility.
I do write for myself, but I publicize it. Why? Do I secretly hope no one will read it, and it can just live on in my own mind and memory? Of course not. I share it because I want to share my feelings, thoughts, and perspective with the world, or whoever the heck reads this thing. Because of this, I have a duty to create something meaningful, not just for myself... but for those who read it. Yes, writing is my therapy, always will be, and never fails for me... but if I can touch someone's life, even for a moment, and enrich their inner being, then I have truly succeeded. As a writer; as an artist; as a person. In only a matter of minutes, both of these ladies did just that for me by sharing their art and their passion. I am so inspired by the both of them, I feel like a different person. I feel like a brand new me, with new perspective and new appreciation. My eyes are open, my ears are perked, and my heart is beating with the warmth I feel from both of them...
How truly magnificent a feeling it is... becoming aware of a need for change in myself; recognizing walls and knocking them down; and voila! Instant gratification. I open my heart and mind to someone new, and my whole world is changed for the better. I cannot wait to continue reading through their posts, and I hope you do the same. We should all see the world as these ladies do... with love, acceptance, kindness. I feel like two angels just entered my world, wrapping me in their tender wings, guiding me along a path to a better kind of love. Not only for myself, but for everything. I am genuinely excited for a new day, for every new day, brings new possibilities. Today, a new me became possible. A start of a new relationship with myself and the world. Today, I love whole-heartedly. Everything. <3
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www.blossomingrose2012.blogspot.com
www.alyalley.tumblr.com
Thanks for making me cry. This is truly beautiful. You know this already,but everyone has a story.If people walk through life with blinders on they will miss what what has always been right there in front of their eyes. You already are open to the gift of life, you just went through a dim period. We all do from time to time. You are deep and definitely in touch with the universe. We are all energy based and there is a reason like minded souls find their way to one another; positivity breeds
ReplyDeletepositivity.I feel blessed to have met you, just as I was blessed to meet Alyssa a few weeks ago. The there is Aggie, the 77 year old Holocaust survivor and fellow lover of life.I met her because I paid attention, and she gave so much to me during our random conversation.The stories she told me touched me to my core, especially since she does not have a bitter bone in her body. She also told me she still feels like she is the age of 15. How telling is that, as I do not feel a day over 29 myself.
I feel like I am lucky, not only making one amazing and creative friend but two.All in the span of just a few weeks.I am rather new to LA so that means a lot to me. After we left we went to Allysa's place and she helped me set up a Tumblr to post my poetry. How kind and helpful was that.I am not gifted in the computer arts so I was very grateful for the assistance as I am grateful for new and inspiring friends.Thanks for inspiring me.
Namaste' Love and Light
Beautifully written. Everyone matters, and affects others in the world. You never know what day will be the day that you influence someone else, the way these ladies influenced you.
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